Last night I was in the shower, also know as my “Realizing Things” zone, and I had this Jimmy Neutron type brain blast. I realized that people will not like you over things that you cannot control. One more time, people will not like you over things that you cannot control! This quote holds very true for my life and especially my life as Myleeza Kardash.
Growing up, my mom was a single mother to my two older brothers and I. She was a Pre-K teacher making way less than she deserved. We lived in a small trailer in rural Louisiana. We weren’t dirt poor, but trust me…we were broke. My mom struggled taking care of three kids on her own with only a mediocre teacher’s salary. She always would tell me, “Things will get better Myleeza. We won’t always have to live like this.”
My mom bossed up, went back to school, and got like 10000 degrees. Next thing you know she moved up to Pre-K Coordinator, then Pre-K Principal, now she’s a School Board Supervisor.
With a better job and trying to wash away my memories of our struggle days, my mom would buy me everything from like 7th grade-12th grade. She even bought me a Range Rover for my high school graduation!
When I got to college, she told me that I didn’t have to work while in school. On the other hand, ALL of my college friends had jobs. They would always tease me about being this “lazy, spoiled brat” and it really used to hurt my feelings. They didn’t know about my struggle growing up in a trailer or me seeing my mom cry because she couldn’t afford to buy me the latest Christmas toy. It wasn’t my fault my mom told me not to work. They were mad at me over stuff I could not control.
Now this get even more intense when it comes to life as Myleeza Kardash. People get in their feelings over every little thing I do and I can’t control ANY of it. People get upset when my followers tell me that they love me, that they look up to me, that they wish they were me, or if they give me any type of compliment. I can’t control that these people love me or look up to me. Why are you upset? You want some love?
People get upset that I may do an interview here or there, that Kim always does dope things for me, that I get to chill with Kim every now and then, and that we’ve built a relationship that’s stronger than just fan and celebrity. I cannot control any of those things. Why are you upset? You want my spot?
Now, since I’ve been verified on Twitter, people get SUPER and I mean SUPER in their feelings because I have a blue check by my name. I mean I get everything from “You’re not famous.”, “What did you do to deserve that.” “Remember you’re just a fan.”, etc etc. Please understand one thing, I DO NOT GIVE AF ABOUT THAT CHECK. Being verified does not pay my bills. It does not get me a job. It does not rub my ass at night. It does not bring me closer to God. It does absolutely nothing but sit there and make you mad. I did not ask to be verified. I did not ask Kim to tell them to verify me. I cannot control that I’m verified. Why are you upset? You want a blue check, too?
With that being said, I want all of my readers to realize that people will dislike you for no reason at all and especially for things you cannot control. People dislike me because my mom always will provide for me, that so many people love me for who I am, and of course because of the relationship that I built with Kim even though I cannot control any of these things. Like Boosie said in one of his songs, “You don’t even gotta have shit and they will still hate on you.”